So today amidst interviewing for my son’s future preschool, adding a load of laundry to the washer, feeding a baby, and getting my toddler a snack, I thought about the idea of napping. It sounded nice in my head, but I knew it just wasn’t going to happen today. The baby slept during the interview so I knew it was a sure thing that she’d be up the rest of the afternoon, anyway. I tried anyway in a bout of wishful thinking. Took this Snapchat. (Click here if you care to follow and see ten-second videos of cooing babies, btw). Then gave up. So while the rest of my family went down for a siesta, I found myself thinking of what I could do while my family slept. Work on the blog! Sure. I carefully balanced the computer on my legs while yet again feeding the baby. That worked for about 23 seconds until she fussed and needed to burp. So now I’m walking around with a fussy baby thinking, “What can I do, what can I do?”
And then it hit me.
Why do I really need to be doing anything right now? The rest of my family is sleeping (minus one hiccuping baby) and here I am feeling like I’m being lazy if I’m not doing something. Why do I feel guilty if my feet aren’t moving or if my hands aren’t working?
I realize I never really felt this way when I was working outside the home, because the number on the paycheck always vouched for me that I was pulling my weight. But what do I have to show now that I’m at home with the kids? Sure, I make an income on this blog, but that’s something I really enjoy doing, so it doesn’t really feel like “pulling my weight.” Especially when my husband doesn’t nearly enjoy going to work as much as I do.
So in the midst of finding myself needing to be busy, I stopped and created this video with the epiphany I had. Check it out, leave a thumbs-up, comment and say “HEY, AWESOME VIDEO!!!” and then subscribe to my budding YouTube channel!
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